Blogging in a Bad Mood

Maybe I should have waited until tomorrow. It’s probably not a good idea to put something out, over the internet, when one is in a foul mood. Then again, being in a bad mood makes me not care.*

It’s hot and humid, and I’m tired of it. Yes, I know the sun rises a little later, sets a bit earlier, and we’re losing precious minutes of daylight. And so many will disagree with me when I say, “bring on the cool days!” I want my cold feet to need socks. I want to hold a steaming mug of tea up to my face. I want cold air to rush in through the windows. But for now, it’s still uncomfortable. I’m thankful for central air conditioning, but I’m just tired of running it. Bleh.

My début novel, “Chocolate for Breakfast,” has been out for a month, and the roller coaster ride continues. After thirty days, most of the friends and family who were going to download my book have done so. Many of them have sent messages telling me the book was good (“I couldn’t put it down,” “I didn’t want it to end,” and “I can’t wait for your next book!”) To the ones who read it and haven’t said anything to me about it: thank you. I was hoping that, if you didn’t like it, you’d just stay silent, so thank you for doing that! I do want to write my second book, tentatively titled “The Reunion.” But I feel like I’m spending my entire day marketing this one, trying to sell it to people who have no idea who I am. Don’t get me wrong, I knew it would be like this, but still.

Last month I posted about a former co-worker who was severely beaten by her husband, who then killed himself. Tragic and senseless. She has not recovered, and, a month later, she may never recover. And this is overwhelmingly sad to me. My friend was a loud and brassy woman with a heart of gold who adored her two grown children. She should be here to enjoy every moment.

*But I can’t end a blog this way. There are small moments in each day. I ate lunch with my sister today, where we felt a breeze by the water. Afterwards, we watched folks kayaking around Wickford Cove. A big black dog looked me in the eye and wagged his tail, and a little girl in a sparkly dress marveled at a tiny bird.

14 thoughts on “Blogging in a Bad Mood

  1. A refreshingly honest post and much appreciated at all levels. I’m keeping this post for inspiration as I, too, continue to sweat my way through September. Again, thanks!



  2. I’m with you bring on the cooler days!! Sorry to hear about your co-worker I hope she returns to her authentic self.


  3. It’s totally OK to have a bad day. As the Dalai Lama says, “You are where you are supposed to be.” I HATE the heat. And I grew up and still live in the South ( though I was diverted to the North a couple of times). We are have a remarkable 77 degrees down here in Tennessee and its supposed to dip into the 50’s tonight! A rarity this time of year and I am thrilled. I’m with ya sista! ( one August while living in Tampa, I took my 15 year old son snow skiing in Argentina to escape the heat!)


  4. Well dearest Martha, I have huge respect for you for managing to do any writing at all when in a bad mood. I’ve been in a foul mood for days which has not done me any favours in the creativity department and has constipated all my attempts when I’ve tried.

    It is very sad news about your friend, you must be out of your mind worrying about her and praying for her recovery. What a terrible thing to have happened – it puts my grump to shame.

    I’m struggling with my amazon account – Our bank has frozen our cards for the moment as i’ve had some idiot try to use my card for buying stuff online…far too boring to explain but needless to say dealing with ones bank 7.500 miles away is a pain in the butt. I shall sort it out when I go back to UK in October. When I tried to do the download that you mentioned it said ‘not currently available in Indonesia’. I’m LONGING to read Chocolate For Breakfast but for the moment I’ve proudly pinned it onto my ‘Books worth reading’ on Pinterest so in a small way I am doing my best to help promote it for you 🙂

    And on the subject of the weather, I’m right there with you. When I do snap out of my grump, my first post is going to be all about how much I miss the seasons. After almost a year of sitting in 34 degree heat dealing with a sweaty cleavage and frizzy hair, the thought of cold crisp days almost tips me over the edge! xxx


  5. Whenever I complete a big project I’m proud of, first off there is a sense of relief coupled with exhilaration. But after a flurry of responses from folks connected with the project, I often feel a bit of a let down. So I can only imagine how tight the curves on the roller coaster must be for you after publishing your first novel!

    As far as the responses to your book, you’ll have to hold Lincoln’s line in mind about “… you can never please all of the people all of the time.” The fact is you pleased yourself along with all of us who said we thoroughly enjoyed it – because we truly did!

    By the way, I too am waiting impatiently for autumn…


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